a struggle..
03.17.08 (8:27 pm) [edit]
Hesitant to think things through or even write, I wondered why a sentence kept running through my mind… I know that it was simple and it was said with nothing but direct honesty, but I think that’s why it remains with me now.
And so thank you for listening. For being someone I can ramble on to without wondering if I truly make any sense; for allowing me to say what I think and say what I feel even before I’ve realized why it is I feel or think the way I do. I never feel like you are judging me and it is a new and free state to be in..
When you recently told me, "Faith is a struggle".. I took comfort in that. Not necessarily because I believe it is okay for me to be in such an uncertain state…but because my questions, my doubts, my desire to pursue knowledge or faith in that something now seems to have a safe resting place...and I don't feel like I need to have the answers..I should not have the answers.
And so thank you for listening. For being someone I can ramble on to without wondering if I truly make any sense; for allowing me to say what I think and say what I feel even before I’ve realized why it is I feel or think the way I do. I never feel like you are judging me and it is a new and free state to be in..
When you recently told me, "Faith is a struggle".. I took comfort in that. Not necessarily because I believe it is okay for me to be in such an uncertain state…but because my questions, my doubts, my desire to pursue knowledge or faith in that something now seems to have a safe resting place...and I don't feel like I need to have the answers..I should not have the answers.